So much has happened.
I have been to India. Met the dalailama. So cool. It was amazing!
I got married on a mountain by the beach in Anjuna, Goa, India.
Those are the big things.
India was crazy.
Now I live in Oslo the most expensive town on this earth. But it is coool. I love it here:)
come and visit!

I am so glad that I have had the chance to meet so many wounderful spirits:) Sufi, who is all love. Daniel who is all fun. Nitzelli, who understands. Brian who knows everything. I need som space now though. I am getting crazy. To little time to think. and to much of other people:) Cuba will be good. We ar hitch hiking from acapulcu to cancun. Then I am flying to cuba. whieieeiiieeieii! Nothing is really as dangerous as people tell you.

I just read brians Blog about news.
Here is a story about news that "lies":)
About 2 years ago fox was showing a documentary about sweden.
I dont know how big the news were in the states but we heard a lot about it in Sweden and I saw the documentery.
It was about how dangerous Swden was. The makers of the documantary talked to an ambulance team in one of swedens biggest cities, Malmo.
The team was telling the makers about how they could not drive down the streets in Malmo because it was so dangerous.
Fox was trying to tell the world how dangerous Sweden was.  They wanted to show how the muslims are making Malmo a dangerous city.
I dont really know what to say about the documantery. I have been to malmo. It is not that dangerous. I ahev friends from Malmo. They say the same.

When I was going down to Mexico from LA people told me that I shouldnt go, because it is SO dangerous DOWN THERE. I havent had any experiences of danger so far and I have been in Mexico for 14 days and I have been walking down what is considered to be thet most dangerous street i Mexico City at 4 am in the morning.

Why is it that people love to tell and hear sbout how dangerous everything is? Why is it that some people love to spread fear?

Any way. Lets say that Malmo and Mexico are dangerous. Why would they be?
I listened to something Ken Wilber said, it was someting like this:
"Farmers that lived 200 years ago did not not use pecticidec because they where closer to the nature or because they didnt want to, they didnt because they couldnt. and if you would giva a nuclear bomb to a tribe that lived in the stoneage that was in war they would probably use it. " I heard it long ago so this is only the way a I remembered it.
Well what I am trying to say is that Sweden for example have gone through a development and we are where we are, a democratic state free from war. We do not have a big problem with violece and robberies. We do not have to split up the subway trains and have 4 wagons for men and 4 for women, they do this in mexico city because they have a problem with men touching women when they stand to close.
Whet I thinkis the probelem is that when an individual comes from a society that is lower in the development (the 4 quadrants and stuff like that thet Ken is talking about) and is "put" in a society where the individuals are uaualy higher in the development he will have a hard time.
In some countries it is up to the woman to protect man from molesting her, so she wears a burka, the men in a society like that are not thougt not to touch women. A woman with little clothes in a society like that is a woman who wants to be toutched.
So ofcourse it is hard to for him not to touch a woman with little clothes.

So all societies are built up on different values and ways. Is it strange when individuals that moves from one society to another might have a problem with acting good?

But what can we do about it?

Do I hev to say that this is what I think and believe, and not the truth. If you have another wau of thinking please tell me! I want to know more about this!

I dont like being around people. I dont really know why. But they are difficult.
So I gave it a couple of days, I have been around alot of people talking to everybody.
But all of them just want one thing. At least the guys.
That is generalising, but that is my experience.
I met a really nice guy yesterday. Had a god smart conversation.
But in the end he wanted me to come with him to his room and it kind of destroyed everything. the conversation became worthless, it was just another way to try get a girl to lay down.
I just want to talk, listen, learn and grow.

Where can I find people that are like me? on zaadz? I hope so:)

I am just so honest when I am drunk. It freaks people out but ity makes me feel so good.
I do what I want to.

Right now I miss Henrik:) He would go nuts if he knew this, think I am in love with him and stuff. but it is not like that. I love henrik, but not as being in love.

Ok. Things I have to work with:
Loving peoples unhappiness and bad luck. I do that because it makes me feel better. It feels like I am lucky or something.
Being mad at people in lover stages. Like Mexican guys that whistle, scream and do stupid things because I am a girl. Ok, 18 yo guys do this. But here even 40 yo men do it. Sad.
I need to smile more. It makes me happy. and I need not to think about tomorrow, yestarday or 1 hour from now.

How can I get there?
Be responsible, be honest, stop judging and stop trying so hard.
I can feel that I am getting closer. I feelt that out of state thing once in feb now I get there about once every other day:)

I am reading THe devil and Miss Prym.
It is a great book. Great as in awsome.
Any açway it had a little storry f heaven and hell in it and that reminded me of a story a friend told me and I am shearing it with you.
A lady who had just died arived to the gate of heaven and hell and the guard at the gate decided to show her hell and heaven before she entered.
So he started by tking her to a big crwded room. All the people in the room where thin and looked missrable. The where all sitting around these big bowls of what looked like delicious soup and all of them had a spoon in their hand. A sppon that was to long o use.
Then the guard took her to heaven and everyting in heaven looked exactly the same as in hell acept for the people, they looked happy and helthy.
The woman was confused and act the guard what the difference between heaven and hell was. And the guard answered
The only difference is that here in hell, people are feding each other.

So. If everybody takes nobody gets,
but if everybody gives everybody gets.

So I started my tripp today. Freedom is what t is. Strange how it feels and I have been doing stuff I am afraid of. Leaving the safe for the unknown, alking o people I dont know and spending money.
Well any way. I met a girl through couchsurfing.com and she is awsome. couchsurfing is awsome. just had dinner. lovella is her name. met her friends. and we are oing out to nogiht. first time out in the US for me.
cool. and tomorrow is salsa day. and some day soon I will be heading for mexico and cuba.
I get a strange feeling when I am around people. a feeling that I dont fit in. dont know what it is. dont care trying to get over it and so I will.

The bogart is a creature that lives in hidden places such as in drawers, cabinets or closets.
When ever facing a bogart it will turn in to your greatest fear a spider, a snake or professor Snape for example.
To fight a bogart you need to concentrate on the silliest thing you can ever think about, a spider with underwear or snape in a dress for example. With this thought in mind you need to use the riddikulus spell on the bogart.

Dementors are the creatures that are guarding the prison of azkaban.
They are wearing black hooded. Dementors do not walk they slide over the ground to wherever they are headed.
Whenever a dementor is near you can feel its presens. The dementor sucks every good feeling out of you and makes you feel like you will never be happy again.

The kiss
The dementors kiss is told to be the worst thing that can happen to anyone.
When a dementor deicides to kiss you it leans over you, its hood sliding back and it sucks your soul out of your mouth. No one have ever lived to tell what a dementors kiss feels like, so we can not tell for sure that it is the worst thing to experience.

Surviving a dementors atack
To survive a dementors atack you need to produce a patronus. Wich can be created by a simple spell. The spell is simple not saying that creating a paronus is simple. When you use the spell you have to think about the happiest moment of your life or a moment that might come to be the happiest moment of your life. The day you win the quiditch world cup, or the day your doughter was born or something similar.
After being atact by a dementor eating a piece of chocolat is strongly recomended, tough it helps to bring you happy feelings back.